Hi.
My name is Maria. (Yes, I’m still here – I took a holiday break).
I am FAT.
I used to be skinny. Then I was thin. Then I was chubby. Then I was baby weight – twice.
But now, I’m just fat.
No cute cardigan is going to change this fact.
In fact there is nothing cute in the closet at the moment, except some depressingly boring tshirts, and one million cardigans.
I’ve lost weight in the past, but never the full amount. I get there 30, 40, maybe even 75% of the way, and then regress.
I am awesome at going backwards.
I’m done with going the wrong way.
So what’s different this time?
I feel OLD, and rickety, and OLD. I’ll be honest, that almost feels worse than being fat.
Also, I see something in the mirror, other than my reflection, that I hate.
I see someone I always told myself I would never become.
I see sad. I see depressed. I see a real stranger.
I deserve better for myself.
As of tomorrow, I will be starting over.
I have decided to join Weight Watchers online – I’ve read about the new Points Plus program, and their many success stories, and I’ve decided that I want to be one of them.
And I start TOMORROW!!!!!!!
I’m going to be posting my weekly updates every Monday, and knowing that so many of you are also planning on doing Weight Watchers or already are, I’m going to have a Mr.Linky at the bottom of each Monday post, in case you want to link up.
This will probably take a while, with the amount of weight I want to lose, so I would love your support, and I want to cheer you on too!!
Disclaimer: This is NOT a sponsored post – I chose WW on my own, and paid for it with the pennies I found under the couch cushions.
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Good Luck, Maria! You CAN do it. I’m getting back on track now, too.
I’m right there with you. It has taken me so long to come to terms with the fact that I’m not just a few pounds overweight or that it’s baby weight. I have to accept the fact I’m not the curvy, but petite, girl with the great ass anymore. I started the day after Christmas when I got a major wakeup call from the Wii Fit of all things. I’m not doing Weight Watchers, but I’m off to a good start, losing 3.7 lbs in my first week, just counting calories. If you want a support network on Twitter, look me up!!
Jill (@charmedimsure) recently posted..Five Easy Pieces
I have lost a ton on WW (like, a TON) so I commend you for trying it, and I know you will love it. Don’t give up!!! It comes off slowly but it adds up FAST.
You can do it!!!!!
Good for you! You can do it. Looking forward to reading about your progress.
Erica recently posted..Ghosts of New Year’s Eves Past
good for you! I would say this as well, pay the money to see a dietician, and to get the book “Intuitive Eating.” Both will take you further than you’d ever believe. Even the book alone is an amazing investment for under $10!
sara@domesticallychallenged recently posted..Running for Me
Way to Go!! I really really really know how you are feeling right now!!! Can’t *weight* to hear your updates!!
Good for you, sweetie. You are gorgeous on the outside, but we all know we need to feel good about ourselves and getting back on the weightloss wagon is something I can relate to.
mel recently posted..Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do
YAY!! You CAN do it Maria and you will feel SO much better, I promise, in SO many ways. I was in the same place as you last year and as matter a fact my post from last year at this time has a VERY similar title. I can’t wait to see and hear about your progress!
If you need extra support/motivation just send a tweet or email, k? xo
Elaine recently posted..I took a lot of pictures last year
Go Maria!!! Go Maria!!!! You can do it!!!! And when you do, you will feel so good when you reach your goal! If you feel like giving up, don’t! I will be here cheering you on the entire way!!!!!!
Alicia recently posted..My Favorite Destination of 2010!
Please inspire me to get my ass out of the cardigan too. Thanks.
Whoo hoo!! You will do great!!
I am doing ww too! We could be eachothers
Support!!
You can do it Maria!
You are so not alone in trying more than once to make the change for good. I was reading through old blog posts last week on my blog and there are so many about recommitting to exercise and eating right. I did hit a good stretch before #6 and I’m trying to get back there.
I’m doing the 100 Days Challenge (look it up on FB) to get started. And we got the Wii Fit and it is helping me out so far, because I can do steps while watching regular TV. It is not my usual workout, but it is better than nothing.
I suck at eating good for me food though. One challenge at a time, right?
You’re going to do great!
nicole recently posted..You Capture- Holiday Favorites
You inspire me!!!!
I’m on the same path this year, Maria!
I’ve got a ways to go but I’m not focused on the number – just the feeling. Mostly, just to reduce the jiggles!
Have fun and keep us posted! I can’t wait to hear how it all goes.
Yaaay Maria!!You CAN do it… look at all the support around you!! Use it. You are NOT alone. You are gonna be a hot skinny bitch sooner than you think! Look out world!! xo
I am right there with you. This will be great. I bought a Wii and the Wii Fit for Christmas. I have started using it and I love it. I love the competitiveness and the way it keeps track of you. I am also doing WW. I have done it before so I am just doing it the old fashion way. (I need those pennies under the cushions for milk, bread, yogurt you know… life). Anyway it will be great to have some support! Looking forward to the Linky!
Myrtle recently posted..Rearview Joy
I’m right there with you sistah friend. It’s so funny that as soon as I finished and posted my blog, I see yours. We are so similar it makes me laugh out loud!! Good luck on your journey. I hope together we become two skinny bitches.
Maria – Welcome to my world – I was in denial for soooo
Janey
long…I too have decided that this year I am shedding all the bad
weight – including all the negatives that try to keep me down. I
will be with you and will be blogging my progress on my site as
well. Good luck to us both.
Maria, you and I are living the same life. Sigh. But this
year will be a great one, I know it. Good luck with WW – I’ve done
it before (during one of those amazing times when the weight was
going in the right direction) and was successful. You can totally
do it. You’ll feel fantastic.
I’m cheering for you! — and on the way today, veeery
slowly, to buy a family fitness membership at the place you can see
from my house. Flab — Get the hell out of the cardigan!
I just joined yesterday. I am right there with you!! Let’s
DO it!!! Xoxo
Sandra Guirguis (@Dopeysmom) recently posted..Getting Our Groove On- Ringing in 2011!!
Good luck! I’ve heard great things about their program, my mother-in-law used it successfully.
Allison @ Alli ‘n Son recently posted..Broccoli and Cheese Soup
Here to cheer you on! I used to be a “big girl” until about ten years ago, until I took charge of my eating and exercise, and I love to encourage others in their desire to be healthy.
You can do it!!
Angella recently posted..Unspoiled
You’ve summed up how so many people feel in just a few brief sentences.
I firmly believe in Healthy Goals. I went up and down the scale countless times over the years and finally figured it out to lose weight the right way. People gain and lose weight over and over again but until they understand what is going on in the cycle they can’t break the pattern.
Best of luck,
Jeannie @healthyweighs
Jeannie Spiro recently posted..Setting Healthy Goals for 2011
You can do it! We’ll be here to cheer you on
I’ll be joining you in trying to lose weight too! You’ll be my inspiration…..does that help to motivate you a little bit?
Multi-Testing Mommy recently posted..GIVEAWAY 4 Tickets to Mickeys Rockin Road Show
I was thinking of doing the points Plus thing too. Are you doing the online thing or the meetings? I think I will go sign up. I need some help in this department.
Kameron recently posted..Arielle at 13 months
I’m doing the online one b/c you get full access to their online tools and iphone app and they are fantastic!!
You go girl! I know you can do it, and you will feel so much better for it. Take charge. Use us as your support. Whatever it takes. We all want you to shine and feel awesome about yourself. You deserve it.
Christine recently posted..His own way
Slow and steady wins the race. Good luck on your weight loss journey. I’ve had success with Weight Watchers in getting the weight off in the past. It’s just that persnickety keeping it off that’s the problem.
Good Luck!!
Good for you! I know a few people who’ve done Weight Watchers with a lot of success. You can do it!
Lady Mama recently posted..Spring cleaning in January
Way to go Maria!! You are an inspiration! My granddaughter became engaged last year and I vowed not to be the fat grandma in her wedding photos. Guess what. The wedding is in two weeks and I AM the fat grandma! I am so disgusted with myself. Things have to change. I am disabled due to back problems so exercising is very difficult for me. I’m not working any longer so we had to give up our membership to the Y where I could at least swim. I’m posting this and then going over to the WW online site. Hey, maybe I’ll see you there! Thanks Maria for giving me inspiration to get off my hinny and do something about it instead of remaining fat and whinning about it!
I am cheering for you! I have gained, lost, and gained. My last pregnancy took me to an all time high. Only problem is, he is one and I am still stuck at the weight in which I had him. But now with thyroid medications and three days into WW points plus, I feel I will be able to do it too! I am inspiried and I will be working right along with you! Good Luck! I