So here’s the truth of the matter – I give up on myself very easily. I am a genius and a pro at talking myself out of things and convincing myself that I can’t do it.
A perfect example – my weight.
I start a “diet” (HATE that word) I succeed for a bit, get really overwhelmed by how much I need to lose overall, and give up. I do that every time I try to lose weight. Every time.
Sadly, this just causes the weight to go up, and the struggle gets harder and harder.
I joined Weight Watchers a while back when I heard that they had a new program – I wanted to try it out and see what the fuss was all about. So I did, and I blogged about it here, and here and here. Yes, I lasted three pathetic weeks.
What is most interesting about those three posts, is that they get HUNDREDS of hits every day. Seriously, a TON of hits. And so, whenever I look at my stats, I see Weight Watchers over and over again. I’m grateful for every hit, but also feel like a complete ass when I see them.
Why did i quit again? WHY didn’t i keep it up and interact with all these wonderful people who keep commenting, and benefit from their support?
You see where this is going? Yes, I decided to re-join and really give it a shot. And I made myself a promise, that even if I do NOTHING the entire week, I will still go and pay my $17 bucks each and every week. I will get my ass there no matter what.
My goals? I’ve also tweaked them into reality – I realize that I have a lot of weight that I want to lose. This can’t be done in a month or two. Instead, I’ve decided to give myself a year to lose the weight. Blogher 2012 in New York City is my goal date to get to my goal weight – approximately one year to lose a crapload of weight – 100 pounds or so.
One year, one hundred pounds.
I have two choices – I can succeed or i can fail.
We’ll see what happens.