My name is Maria. (Yes, I’m still here – I took a holiday break).
I am FAT.
I used to be skinny. Then I was thin. Then I was chubby. Then I was baby weight – twice.
But now, I’m just fat.
No cute cardigan is going to change this fact.
In fact there is nothing cute in the closet at the moment, except some depressingly boring tshirts, and one million cardigans.
I’ve lost weight in the past, but never the full amount. I get there 30, 40, maybe even 75% of the way, and then regress.
I am awesome at going backwards.
I’m done with going the wrong way.
So what’s different this time?
I feel OLD, and rickety, and OLD. I’ll be honest, that almost feels worse than being fat.
Also, I see something in the mirror, other than my reflection, that I hate.
I see someone I always told myself I would never become.
I see sad. I see depressed. I see a real stranger.
I deserve better for myself.
As of tomorrow, I will be starting over.
I have decided to join Weight Watchers online – I’ve read about the new Points Plus program, and their many success stories, and I’ve decided that I want to be one of them.
And I start TOMORROW!!!!!!!
I’m going to be posting my weekly updates every Monday, and knowing that so many of you are also planning on doing Weight Watchers or already are, I’m going to have a Mr.Linky at the bottom of each Monday post, in case you want to link up.
This will probably take a while, with the amount of weight I want to lose, so I would love your support, and I want to cheer you on too!!
Disclaimer: This is NOT a sponsored post – I chose WW on my own, and paid for it with the pennies I found under the couch cushions.